Black Clouds On The Sunniest Day

I heard your giggles

and saw your blond hair

as you plotted mischief

with my daughter, Carrie.

You danced through

our photo albums

as you always did,

but the silence became too loud.

Why was it that the sunniest day

had such dark clouds?

 Sunday turned bleak

with a scream spiraling

down the stairwell,

Jamie’s dead!!

It was hard to hold pain

when it was liquid pouring

from one’s soul into

limbs that were drowning.

I held Carrie trying to plug

the tears in her heart with compassion,

but the walls of my own heart

were breached by pain and

I felt them crumbling.

A monster with an unknown face

had come out of the dark

to steal Jamie’s life and leave

her broken body discarded

like an unwanted doll.

Childhood memories were

bloodstained by the unspeakable.

Carrie’s spirit became a crime scene

screaming why and will evil be caught?

   

Holding Carrie in my arms

I felt her warmth

while grieving the empty arms

of Jamie’s mother that her precious

daughter would never again fill.

  

©Susie Clevenger 2013

In 1999 Carrie's friend, Jamie, was abducted, raped and murdered by a man who was caught after he had murdered another young woman. DNA from that crime linked him to Jamie's murder. It is so hard, no it is impossible to put into words the pain my daughter went through after losing her friend so horrifically. 

At Real Toads Fireblossom prompted us to speak of loss. Fireblossom Friday ~ Loss