Mama I Miss You



Mama I sat and looked at you
wanting to scream
please remember me,
come back from that
horrible land of unknowing.
Your tears broke my heart
as you looked at me
not recognizing my face.


I couldn’t help you find home again.
It was a place in your mind
where I could not travel.
Today was not real to you.
You were lost in the past.


I didn’t know that September day
would be the last time
I would hear your voice
or hold your hand,
feel your arms around me.


Mama I miss you.
Sometimes I feel like
that little girl 
you were searching for,
wanting you to kiss my forehead
and tell me everything will be fine.

©Susie Clevenger 2011



Comments

Anonymous said…
thanks for sharing this, and especially thanks for reading it a loud
November 22, 2011 at 12:41 AM
The Unknowngnome said…
Heartbreakingly written and read. So moving.
November 22, 2011 at 12:52 AM
William Leed said…
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William
November 22, 2011 at 12:52 AM
Christine said…
Yes. Exactly. Thankyou.
November 22, 2011 at 1:09 AM
Mary said…
Susie, I read your poem and also listened to you read it. It is so poignant, sad, real. So sad when someone one loves (mother or whoever) does not recognize you and you don't really know 'where' they are. I think of all the poems I have read by you, this one wilol stay WITH me. I pray that in our lifetime they will find a cure.
November 22, 2011 at 7:07 AM
Anonymous said…
So very moving. A beautiful tribute. God Bless your Mama and you and your family. x
November 22, 2011 at 8:14 AM
Old Raven said…
Susie, I think what I enjoy most about your poetry is the depth of emotion that you are capable of expressing ... without it ever being maudlin.
November 22, 2011 at 10:36 AM
Maude Lynn said…
Heartbreaking write, beautifully done.
November 22, 2011 at 10:38 AM
Anonymous said…
Oh Susie, this is so beautiful, I had a lump in my throat when reading. It made me think of my grandma who was actually my mother at least I consider her so because she raised me. She passed in May of 05 but she stays with me everyday. Alzheimers is such a sad thing, so I hear. I am sorry.

Love always.
Kellie

P.S...you should so share this in the Open Mic on Sound Cloud! :)
November 22, 2011 at 3:45 PM
Carrie Van Horn said…
Susie this is beautiful...our relationship with our mother is such an important one in our lives....I am so sorry for your loss, this is a lovely tribute to the love you have for her.
November 22, 2011 at 8:05 PM
Michelle My Bell said…
My heart aches... every word of this I can so relate to, but to my Dad... who I miss dearly. My prayers for strength and comfort my new sweet friend...
November 22, 2011 at 9:59 PM
Harvee said…
I have had the same sentiments in my life and for a long time. Very moving.
November 23, 2011 at 4:58 PM
Daydreamertoo said…
Awww this is such a sad thing. Dementia or Alzheimer's is so sad for everyone not just the person affected, it's so hard on their family and friends too.
I feel your pain and sadness in every line.
November 23, 2011 at 5:02 PM
The Write Girl said…
What a beautiful, heartfelt, and emotional poem. Sadly, so many can relate to the painful affects of alzheimers. You've touched many people with this poem Susie.
November 24, 2011 at 12:03 AM
Rosemary Nissen-Wade said…
Ah, I have my own experience of this, though not with my mother. I like above all the simple honesty with which you write of it, and what you say in the final verse.
November 24, 2011 at 2:37 PM
Almas Kiran Shamim said…
oh susie!!! this is such a touching poem.. especially coz we know about ur mummy's alzheimers....
i really agree with the comments above.. alzheimers i sindeed very hard on the family..
but hey brave girl!!!
u r makin ur mummy so proud by the beautiful way in which u bring back her memories...
so alive .. for all of us... :)
November 24, 2011 at 4:48 PM
Lucy Westenra said…
Lovely tribute to your mother
November 25, 2011 at 1:15 AM
Brian Miller said…
this one hurt quite a bit to read...i have watched it and now watch my own mom in fear that it may be coming...
November 27, 2011 at 10:28 AM
Wander said…
Thank you for this, I found this from your post on Susie's sentences and I had a similar post http://wanderwithoutbeinglost.blogspot.com/2011/06/with-love-your-sun.html
January 8, 2012 at 6:07 PM
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