I Lie Down In Tears

I lie down in tears,
my heart broken,
but my resolve certain.
The pain at saying goodbye
less affliction than
to have my spirit die
by remaining with you.

I had buried myself under
what you wanted,
building you up,
while tearing myself down.

I can not be your salvation,
my sacrifice never enough.
The road to your healing
must take steps through
the hell I had no part in.

I toss and turn among questions
as to what my future will bring,
but I am taking my second chance.
Life began again with my goodbye.

©Susie Clevenger 2010