How do I live in my division?
There are street signs in my heart
sending me in so many directions.
For each step forward there are
roadblocks of guilt set before me,
should I, shouldn’t I, he wants, she wants.
Is it love to deny my own dreams
and let myself be pulled with teeth gritted
and bitterness seeded into another’s wish?
Damn the intrusion, the forced will,
the wish to please that rules me.
I must pull their street signs from me.
It is not their life to live, but mine.
I shall smile and say, “No thank you.”
And walk the direction of my dreams.
©Susie Clevenger 2012
Written for Kellie Elmore's Free Write Friday